Welcome to your life...

I'm back from two weeks of having way too much fun and being way too evil. Now, for 340 days of feeling mildly wracked with guilt and being reminded of how lonely my life really is after having spent two weeks sharing laughter, amusement, and my bed with someone special. Yeah, someone who lives way too far away to think of persuing a real relationship with, but who left enough of an impact on my life to make me miss him dearly.

What's worse is that it was not one, but two men. One was recently met and the other was one I had known for many years but who spoke to me those words I had only dreamt of hearing him utter: "We're divorced now..." He was quite happy when I observed that he was single now, as was I. We kept each other company quite nicely. But, I doubt we will again and it was just one of those things.

My attitude about myself was raised quite high over these two weeks and now, it is quite low as a result of returning home to, well, nobody.

Oh well.