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I don't know if I will explode if I am not someone else.

A rut has been identified and I am within it. Wish I knew what to do. Usually, when I reach this point, I find a new place to go, to move to. Perhaps it is just the holiday week-end. I dunno. Feeling very disconnected at the moment in general. Usually, that is a good thing for me--that whole not obligated to anyone thing. However, I just feel very numb at the moment.

I will blame Glenn ;P Gotta get over him. Really really do need to. But how?

Friday, my non-spouse left a voice-mail for me in which he just briefly told me that if I needed to talk about the Glenn thing, to call him. It didn't sound sincere. So, I didn't. I don't want to be that whiney friend that one doesn't want to hear from. I would much prefer to be the friend from whom a call is a special thing, not something to be screened. Haven't heard anything else from the non-spouse, even though he was oh-so interested in us getting together to help him get some stuff together to wear to a ren fest this coming week-end. Yeah, and he wonders why I don't trust him to show up when we have plans for things. I shouldn't have to call and remind him of things, so I decided a couple weeks ago to stop doing that. Look what it got me, eh?

Yeah, thanks for helping me lose any faith in men in my life, Glenn. You did wonders.

OK, time to shower and put away now clean clothes. Then, sleep.

Isn't my life an exciting one?