As the days go by, I keep thinking "When does it end?"

Wow.

A really sad thought hit me as I left the movie theatre tonight; I had what would have been the perfect date...had I actually been with anyone. I wonder if that is one of my many issues. I went out for a nice dinner and then to see a movie that I thoroughly enjoyed. As the film progressed, I found myself wishing more and more that I had someone with me. Before Pennsic, this was not as much of an issue. I often times wish that that part of me that had been opened up during Pennsic would just shut up again and let me continue a life of a pretty much solitary existence.

Needless to say...still no Otter contact.

...and watching Jet Li didn't help either with trying to forget that fact. That controlled and graceful walk was so very Otterish.

Kathleen and I had a very pleasant day together. Last night was a wee bit strange since it was definitely time for us to sort of feel each other out. After all, seven years is quite a while. Today, we wandered through Millennium Park and I took her to see the Chagal mosaic and the Picasso in the Daley Center Plaza. We then went to Marshal Field's so I could show her the mosaics in there, and we shopped for necklaces and earrings, then walked up to Loyola where we looked at churches, then over to the Hancock Building and up to the observation deck and then back to her hotel. It was there we said our goodbyes. I then continued on to dinner and to a movie and am now back here.

Life is a strange thing. I am feeling like I am struggling to get back to something. Back to a time when I didn't know so much, but still knowing what I know to keep from having to learn it the hard way. I miss innocence. I miss my former optimism. I miss being stupid at times.

Wisdom does have a cost that is more than one's youth.